Journal

The last minutes of my early 30s

I figured I should write something to recognize this mile marker.  Shannon's headed to bed, I forgot to put my laundry in earlier, so now I wait for the dryer to get done.  So here I am.

I have been married for 3 years, 9 months and 13 days.  In that time we've certainly gone through a lot and I think we have settled into a general path into the future.  Right now we are in a sort of holding pattern while we get our financials in better shape.  We are slowly raising up the amount of money that we are saving for retirement (though with the market going the way it does, it doesn't really inspire a whole lot of faith).  Eventually I would like to put away 15% (before taxes) for retirement.  First though, we need to pay off a few things and get situated.

We have talked about moving into another place, just because we think that condo living would be more like what we would want to live, rather then the home.  I do, however, love this house, even though it likes to surprise me from time to time with bills.  We were going to pain this year, but with the triple punch of unexpected expenses, we were left with a choice, ignore the bids that we had gotten for painting, or go further into debt.  We chose to delay it a year.  Even though the outside really does need it, it has to wait.  Surprisingly enough, I was shocked at how relatively low that the cost was for some internal painting.

My goals to loose weight have gone seriously astray.  I've climbed up past where I think I had peaked out before and really need to try to concentrate on that again.  I often kid myself about this.  I think I made root beer baked beans for the soul purpose of being able to drink the other cans of root beer.  I really need to introduce more vegetables and reduce the amount of fat.  Perhaps a start to this would be to get rid of the bacon fat that I have stored in the fridge (though I did actually use it to help make the baked beans).  But for me, there is nothing, and I mean nothing, not cigarettes, not anything, that matches the cravings that I get for food that is bad for me.  Even though I think about how the things are bad for me, I still end up going for that.  It is a depressing thing.

I have been riding the agnostic fence for years.  That is, however, at an end.  I need more replaceable evidence to even consider what many people take as a given.

On a brighter, less controversial side, I really do enjoy some of the traditions that we do.  Movie night (~every other week, dinner + movie, rotate house (usually off of one of the AFI lists)), Game Night (~every other month, generally odd months, try to avoid holidays, birthdays, etc).  I look forward to these.  It's nice to play host from time to time. 

Clearly there is something missing here, but ever since a change was instituted, I feel more restricted talking about that in any sort of meanful way.

I am hoping that in the next few years I can make significant progress on the vague sort of representations for goals.